How did we get here?  How did we decide that a Cuckold Life was one that would work for us?  A few folks have asked inquired about the “how’s”.   Funny, these questions haven’t ever really and truly been pondered by Seth and myself  since the shift from vanilla to cuckold marriage. 

Let me preface by saying that it wasn’t as if one day, we awoke and turned to each other and said, “How about a cuckold relationship?”  Seth will tell you that he already was submitting to me long before I started dating other men, and while I have always been the more dominating one in our relationship, Seth is not some mindless moron!  He is an astute and successful businessman and as he mentioned in his post the other day, his job is very demanding and he carries a lot of clout in his industry.  Its ironic, because even as I have a thriving and respected practice in the medical community, I have often considered working in the medical field to be one which has the tendency to strip away self-empowerment from its practitioners.  Dealing with third party insurance woes, being restricted in scope of practice through state and government regulations and rules, and making a career out of essentially helping people doesn’t exactly sound like the ideal job description for a dominant woman.

This is why I think our marriage works.  Each of us seeks balance from the other.  Both Seth and I have two seemingly polar personas in the public and private theater of life.  When all is said and done at the end of the day, we like to switch the public lights off and become lost  our private, dark, exciting and erotic world of D/s and cuckold experiences.  I need to be able to take total control over my  husband, not in an angered or agitated way, but rather because I spend so much time during my regular day accomadating the system, the insurance companies and my patients that I crave the opportunity to have it all done in exactly the way I want it done.  Without this piece in the puzzle that is my life, I would have a hard time staying sane.

Seth and I have had our ups and downs, we are really not so different from any couple in a long term relationship, other than we practice cuckoldry.  I propose that ours is a healthier relationship in many ways, especially since I am very open with Seth about the men I date.  Instead of sneaking around cheating like so many married spouses will do, Seth knows exactly who I am with and when I will be seeing him and most likely what I will be doing.  There is no need for deception. 

So I don’t think there was this exact moment when we could say that we knew for sure cuckolding would work for our relationship.  It started out as fantasy talk several years ago.  We had rented the movie “Eyes Wide Shut” and were discussing the very hot scene in which Tom Cruise’s character is consumed with thoughts of his wife (played by his then real life wife, Nicole Kidman) being fucked by another man.  As Cruise’s character spirals into a jealous rage, he  wanders the night and finds himself entering a seductive and mysterious world of sex games. Strangely, a conversation about voyeurism rather than cuckoldry evolved between Seth and I.  I admitted to Seth I sometimes fantasized about being watched when having sex.  This excited him greatly! 

That summer, we went on a camping trip with two other couples; Tina and Jim, who we had known for years and Shelly and Jon, a couple we had only recently become acquainted with through Jim.  We were sitting around a campfire the night before we were to return home and naturally the booze was flowing.  Shelly and Jon were a naturally affectionate couple and both quite attractive.  Jon reminded me of the actor who played Aiden on “Sex in the City”–John Corbit (who I had always had a crush on!) Shelly was sweet, blond and had a great sense of humor. 

As we all chatted and joked around the campfire, I noticed some interesting movements taking place underneath the blanket Shelly and Jon had thrown across themselves.  They were lying in a semi-spooning position facing the fire, with Shelly in front of Jon.  At first I wasn’t sure, but I then I was convinced Jon’s hands were all over Shelly  underneath that blanket.  She was squirming a bit in the glow of the fire, occasionally sighing softly.  We were sitting directly across from Shelly and Jon and before long, I knew he had his fingers inside of her.  It was all I could do to remain calm as I sat next to Seth, who I was pretty sure was on to what Jon was doing to Shelly in our presence.  I couldn’t help myself–seeing those two in such a sexually charged state was having quite an effect on me too.  I could detect waves of heat and arousal travelling throughout my body, and soon enough, my pussy was beginning to throb as I imagined Shelly’s was at that same moment. 

The kicker was that all six of us were sharing one cabin on this camping trip and all I knew was that I had to have sex with Seth that night, somehow, some way.  As soon as we straightened out the site and put out the fire, Seth and I wandered off into a wooded area to start a fire of our own!  He too, was very aware of Shelly and Jon’s moment of exhibition earler and was just as turned on by them as I was.  We found a spot a few hundred feet away from the cabin and I leaned over a large boulder style rock so Seth could fuck me doggy style under the starry July night sky.  We were so hot for each other and totally unaware of anything other than the need to give in to pure animal lust. 

We were so oblivious, that just before Seth orgasmed inside of me, I looked up and could faintly make out the outline of a figure, or two in the shadows, about 20 feet away.  Instead of being startled or telling Seth to stop, I felt even hotter and I smiled and ground my hips harder against him as he pumped his cock inside of me, not caring who was watching and in fact, wanting them to see every moment of our unbridled passion.  As Seth groaned and emptied his sperm in me, I looked up again and this time was able to make out the blond ponytail that was unmistakingly Shelly’s.  Shelly and Jon, who were the reason Seth and I got so worked up that night, were now witnessing the very erotic effect they had on us!  Nothing was ever said by Shelly nor Jon about that night, but from that moment on, I knew a long-lasting fetish was born in me.  Performing in front of another was even sexier than I had ever fantasized.  Later I admitted to Seth that Jon and Shelly were watching us fuck in the woods and a big grin broke across his face. 

“Liv, do you know how fucking hot it is to show you off like that?” Seth unabashedly asked me.

Oh, I knew exactly how hot it was.  And so it was in that moment I believe  the early stirrings of the appeal of cuckholdry began to awaken in the both of us.